Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Mommy's Mastectomy

Dear Halen girl,

Hi baby, mommy has her surgery today. We have had some amazing conversations about all mommy is going through. I have been in awe of your response since the beginning...through mommy starting medicine, to mommy's hair falling out, and now to my surgery.

I am so proud of you Halen...you are such a bright little girl with a huge heart. I love how our relationship has grown...I love tucking you in at night...laying with you talking about the day and praying. I love taking you to school and being involved in your school's activities. Like your Thanksgiving Feast this week, you were an Indian, "Little Red Cloud" so darn cute. I love watching your relationship with Henley grow where the two of you will play together. I love watching your relationship with daddy grow. I love watching you swim, you are getting so good at that!

This next week may be difficult, mommy will need a lot of relaxing time and may not be able to do as much. But daddy will be here as our hero, like always. And we have a lot of family coming into town for Thanksgiving that will help us. I know Maile is so excited to play with you.

I love you so much Halen and no matter what it is so important to remember that. You are my big girl and we have so much to accomplish in this life together. I know the best is yet to come.

I am so proud to be your mommy.

Love,

Mommy

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

My energizer bunny

Hi darling,

Mommy just wanted to write to you about a chapter in our lives that we are going through. You may remember tidbits, or see pictures or hear stories one day, so mommy wanted to talk to you about it. The day after sister's first birthday, mommy was diagnosed with breast cancer. It was completely unexpected and blindsided daddy and I. Our lives are just getting better and better then bam we were hit with this. But our village has been amazing, people have been supporting us and loving on you girls like no other.

My first thoughts were for you girls, I just wanted you to be okay and I wanted to be there. I am your mommy, no one else and I will be there the next 60 years of your life. So in the past two weeks daddy and I met with a lot of doctors, had a lot of tests done and appointments to understand what all is going on with mommy. We learned that I have to undergo chemotherapy, a medicine treatment that will make the cancer go away. Now this treatment may make mommy sleepy, forgetful, sad, and I might hurt. But that means it is working and the cancer is going away. You may have to forgive mommy if I sleep too much, or if I forget to come to gymnastics, or if I don't make the right kind of snack, or if I hurt too much to come watch you swim. But Mommy will still have good days, and I promise you when I have good days I will laugh, smile, sing, dance, cook and snuggle.

I love watching you grow and learn Halen. It makes mommy sad to think I might miss out on some special moments this year. But it is important for mommy to focus on being well so I can be there to laugh, travel, run and play. You will have a lot of fun playdate with Papa & Gigi, YaYa, DiDi & T, Nene and Gramps, Camryn, Brooklyn, Piper, Penelope, Jaxon & Kenzie and more awesome people that love you so. Mommy will get through this and when we do, we'll have an incredible family vacation next summer to celebrate.

No matter what Halen when life gets hard it is important to remember that Jesus is always there, right next to you. And you are always stronger than you think. I love you more than all the stars in the sky, and more than all the sand on the Sleeping Bear Dunes.

oxox Mommy