For you

Hello baby. I've been hearing this song on the radio and every time I hear it tears well up in my eyes, I grasp my belly and think of you. I find myself singing this song through my blurry tears to you. I've decided to dedicate this song to you. It is exactly how I feel. Except I made one major revision... you will NOT be leaving me first, my darling,...I will be passing on before you. So here are my updated lyrics. This song is "Gone, gone, gone" by Phillip Phillips.

 

"Gone, Gone, Gone"

When life leaves you high and dry
I'll be at your door tonight
If you need help, if you need help.
I'll shut down the city lights,
I'll lie, cheat, I'll beg and bribe
To make you well, to make you well.

When enemies are at your door
I'll carry you away from war
If you need help, if you need help.
Your hope dangling by a string
I'll share in your suffering
To make you well, to make you well.

You've given reasons to believe
That you would do the same for me.

I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on
I love you long after I'm gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long after I'm gone
And long after I'm gone, gone, gone.

When you fall like a statue
I'm gon' be there to catch you
Put you on your feet, you on your feet.
And if your well is empty
Not a thing will prevent me.
Tell me what you need, what do you need?

I surrender honestly.
You've always done the same for me.

So I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on,
I love you long after I'm gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long after I'm gone
And long after I'm gone, gone, gone.

You're my back bone.
You're my cornerstone.
You're my crutch when my legs stop moving.
You're my head start.
You're my rugged heart.
You're the pulse that I've always needed.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum my heart never stops beating...

For you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on.
I love you long after I'm gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long after I'm gone.
For you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on,
I love you long after I'm gone.
For you, for you.
You will never sleep alone.
I love you long, long after I'm gone.

Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating.
Like a drum my heart never stops beating for you.

And long after I'm gone, gone, gone.
I love you long after I'm gone, gone, gone.

This song emphasizes all my feelings for you, before I've even held you. I love you more than you'll ever know, more than words can ever express. I've dreamt about you and prayed about you all my life. I will be there every step of the way, every tear, every yawn, every smile, every word, every milestone. I will be there, whether that is with my presence or in your heart. We will have a long a beautiful life journey together. And I am elated for April to arrive so we can start living. Love, Mommy

Marlee Moo

You have a sister. A fur-sister. Her name is Marlee Amber Wiatrek. She entered your mommy's world when your mommy was as sophomore in college at Texas State University. Your mommy had a box full of six kittens dropped off at her doorstep. I took care of them all summer and chose to keep Marlee. She looked different with all kinds of colors, was a little cross eyed and she was the runt.

We bonded instantly, I took her to college with me and we became inseparable. Marlee went everywhere I went. When I graduated college and moved to NYC, Marlee came, when I moved to Armonk, NY...Marlee came. She has moved all over the country with me. For four years it was just her and I. I understood her quirks as she did mine. She gave me kisses when I was sad and cuddles when I was lonely. But she never was the type of cat to like other people...just me.

So when your daddy came along I was nervous. I knew how important it was that Marlee like Evan. Well, Marlee sure did put up a good fight and tried so hard not to like your daddy. But your dad was determined to win her over. Then like a light switch went off she fell in love. I never thought she'd love someone as much as she loved me but... somehow it happened. So we became a happy little trio.

Then when your daddy and I got married I made your daddy adopt Marlee. So she officially became a Wiatrek. She loves her big home, runs up and down the stairs, cuddles up on the couches and cuddles with mama and daddy in our big bed.

We know a lot will change when you enter our lives. We're nervous about Marlee's reaction and hope once she realizes you're part of the family, she'll love you too.

It's important to be nice to Marlee. When you get older, make sure you let her sniff you first then she'll bow her head when she's ready for you to pet her. She may be stubborn but once she latches on to you, she'll protect you until she goes to Heaven.

So when you enter our Wiatrek world, you'll have a big fur sister who will love on you, give you kisses and just be there.

16 Weeks

Hello my adorable avocado! (Yep that's how big you are!) Things are great lately, I am starting to feel like myself again. I want to eat healthier foods and to start working out again...life is good. At our last appointment we got to hear your heartbeat again (still at 150) and it calmed our hearts once more.

Our next appointment is to find out if you are Halen or Meyers!!! We cannot wait, I want to call you by your name so badly. If you are a girl we want to name you Halen (after Van Halen...because your mommy is named after them- Lauren Alex...the drummer is Alex Van Halen, so we wanted to carry on the tradition), then we want your middle names to be Rae (after your YaYa) and Carol (after your Grandma Carol). So Halen Rae Carol Wiatrek. :)

If you're a boy we want to name you Meyers (my maiden name) and middle name as Matthew (after your Uncle Matt). So Meyers Matthew Wiatrek. :)

Your nursery is coming along, we decided on a nautical theme focusing on whales and octopi. Your Di Di gave us your crib and we are already collecting items for you. Everyone is SO excited that you are on the way.

Thanksgiving is coming up next week and your mommy and daddy are hosting their very first thanksgiving feast at our new home. Your YaYa and I will be cooking up a storm. Side note: Have I mentioned how close your YaYa and I are? We are really close, I always loved my mom but when I started college I realized how wonderful she was and how much I truly appreciated her. She is the epitome of an unconditional, selfless mother. She is always putting Chase and I first (and now your cousin Crash). She's quite amazing, words cannot describe all that she's done for me...emotionally, spiritually, physically. She's an energizer bunny and she knows what I need before I even tell her. Ever since my first semester in college, I decided to focus on my relationship with her. I hope my relationship with you is just as close and fulfilling as mine is with your YaYa. I look forward to holding a strong relationship from the start with you. I know my goal is to attempt to fill my mom's shoes as a mom. I want to be unconditional for you, selfless, always putting your needs before my own. I decided I was ready to become a mom when I felt fulfilled as a human being on my own. Now I'm ready to be there for someone else. To watch your dreams unfold, to hear your laughter and hug away your tears. I'm so ready. 

Then your best friend Piper will be entering the world so soon! Your Aunt Dana is beside herself excited and I cannot wait to meet sweet lil P. We can't wait to watch you two grow up together.

What else is going on...your daddy is in the playoffs for football with Westlake High School! Denver Broncos are doing awesome....can you say Super Bowl 2014?!

We love you baby boo. We talk all the time about how excited we are simply to be our own little family. :)

Happy belly snuggles. xoxo Mama & Daddy

First Trimester

Hello my sweet plum! Yep you are as big as a plum! I am almost through my first trimester and I can feel you in every inch of me. I started off my pregnancy not thinking I would have any symptoms but alas those symptoms have arrived. The worst part is smell...every time I get a whiff of a bad odor my stomach does a flip flop. Of course, teaching freshman boys certainly does not help. Regardless, your daddy and I are beside ourselves excited.

At our second doctor's appointment we got to see another picture of you, growing, growing, growing! And then at our third doctor's appointment we got to hear your heartbeat. One of the best sounds in the world. Daddy even recorded it so we can play it anytime we want. :)

Next time we have a doctor's appointment you'll be 16 weeks in there! And the appointment after that is to find out if you're a little girl or a little boy :) I've set up a romantic night just for daddy & I to find out about you. We are so excited to have you be a part of our lives little one!

Let's see what else is going on... well mommy only feels the best when her tummy is full and when I'm in bed. :) Which doesn't happen as often as I'd like. I'm craving comfort food....mashed potatoes, pasta, bread, grilled cheese, peanut butter and bananas. I have been walking and went to a prenatal class the other day, which I loved.

My best friend, Dana, which is going to be Aunt Dana to you is in her third trimester. Your best friend, Piper, will be born the end of December or early January!!! So exciting. Dana and I look forward to rocking our babies on our front porch. :) We'll make so many awesome memories together.

Everyone thinks you are a girl, your heart rate was 150 and most say that if it's above 140 the baby is a girl...or a hyper boy! Haha. So we'll see. I am excited for you to be a boy or a girl... I just want healthy, strong and tall. :)

We love you sweet one!